Novzix : A Tiny Dot In This Gigantic Galaxy

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F*TTY B**BS EPPI 21ST BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!

She was my alpha hostel roomate, my best roomate in the world!
She IS my best teammate in all versions of Metal Slug! *She’s Eri n I’m Marco*
She IS my best partner to sing out - of - tune songs.
She IS my best lyricist to alter or distort nice songs into our own version of cool songs.
She IS my best "WooHoo!" friend.
She IS my best SHOUTING partner.
She IS a gooood crapping partner.
She’s a HUGE anime fan too!
She IS a darn good anime artist
She LURVES catsss!
She is chubby, she is cute,
she is funny, she is naughty!
Her new nickname is Kitty Witty!

The challenges we faced in DM brought us closer!
When we’re too stressed out doing assignments,
we’d steal some time to play our metal slugs
and then we’d be recharged again.
Or we’d sneak out to some arcades to play the drums
or shooting game! ^-^

Have a great year ahead my F*tty B**balaty!!!

*Darn, i wish i have ur cute photo to upload here.
But i left all albums in Cyberia. Bleh

So i curi from you friendster >:P

6 weeks + 1½ days to go! I can’t wait to go back home n see my mama! n puppa! But they’re comin over in 2 weeks time, so woohoo!

My boss caught flu yesterday n blamed me T_T.
His wife caught it 3 weeks ago, blamed me T_T.
All bcuz on my 1st week, I was having flu
Shouldn’t you b blaming ur immune systems? and not me :-s

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In the next 2 months, Li’l notty and Adele are goin off to UK
Adele, i’m gonna miss u badly, oops not u but ur constant sarcasm and naughtiness.
And our almost 20 yrs of being neighbours. Those days flew by. Playin’ badminton, cycling, jungle trekking by ourselves (our favourite!), masak-masak, goin under the jambatan and played by the river, trying to catch some fish and dropped ur favourite slippers (yes! i’m gonna repeat this incident again, this time to the whole world, so come yell at me!) and almost cried when it was floating away before your eyes but the almighty Lin caught it right on time ^_^ ok ok i’ll stop now.

Li’l notty has come into my life unexpectedly and turned my world upside down with all the naughtiness he has in him. Well, you spiced up my life! Yeah, Adele you too k?! LOL! *seriously la*

My best wishes go to both of you. I hope we could meet up before u guys go off.
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Final year is kickin in .. well I am! in my final year right now. Gosh … i feel like i’m still a kid inside full of enthusiasm to PLAY! not WORK! Can u imagine? Next year by this time i’d really b working? Never goin back to school ever ever again?! Can u feel the loneliness already?  I do. I don’t know what i’m feeling now during internship i mean. I feel bored, i feel blank, i don even wana think about final year project, it’s scary. Now, even though i’m exhausted, whenever there’s a chance, I’d go out meet as many frens as I possibly can b4 everybody goes off, even though i’m broke as hellllll. What’s there to whine? It was my luck to have found a company with no pay. But yea like always, everybody’d tell themselves to |look at the bright side|. I tried lookin, but *sigh* … … … It’s pathetic havin to live off ur parents pocket at this age. It is, i repeat again … PATHETIC.

The weather gurl of unpredictable nature wishes she has a car to drive ALL the way back to her lovely hometown Kelantan with the  windows wide open, wind blowing in her face and her short & bouncy hair, listening to her favourite songs on the radio, pushing the pedal to the ground … ALL the way … from highways to paddy fields … ALL the way … sunrise to sunset … back to her parents’ open arms.

She loathe the mundane life she’s leading. But no, she doesn’t loathe the meetings she had with her great friends during the previous weeks, in fact she’s grateful and thankful, especially the one she just had with li’l baobei YJ and li’l notty which was brief and unsatisfactory but it was enough to make her heart shine after the gloomy day she had. All the darlings of her heart are dear to her.

She hopes ppl could accept certain things as fate like she does and stop whining. She doesn’t like making enemies. She can never hate a soul. She likes ppl around her to be cheerful and bouncy and sporting. She becomes very dark and sorrowful when ppl often misunderstand her. She looks strong on the outside but inside she’s crying, wondering what wrong has she done but she doesn’t voice out her thoughts. Partly afraid that she might be more misunderstood than before, and partly it’s her nature and partfly bcuz she doesn’t really care anymore. She’s afraid that if she’s at stage of don’t-care-anymore, she’ll let go of everything and treat it like dirt.

She has thought of all possible ways to go around the big black walls around her but she got lost in the maze. However, she has faith that she’ll find her way through … eventually … just like how she found him after a lifetime …

It started with the visit to the Shah Alam Museum to see the INFAMOUS so-called "Mermaid" and other ghostly stuff which I don’t wish to mention now as it’ll send cold shivers down my spine and we’ve been talkin about it in d office all day. I actually wanted to put some of the pics here but ah, I don wish my blog to be haunted :Þ And be contaminated by those ugly pics.

I didn’t get to go into the Museum. I half heartedly thanked God but felt a tinge of disappointment too.
I passed by the Museum NOT knowing that was actually my destination and I thought ppl were queueing up to buy some concert tickets under the fuggin’ hot sun and oh yeah! THE queue was like 1km long or more. I gave up and went to Bon Odori instead.

We were too early there so I "kidnapped" some jap kids

Kids never failed to amaze me with their sweetness

Thankful for the li’l reunion we had with Gillion, "Worm", Jess,  "Li’l Baobei" YJ and CF, and a few more. But we had a bigger Internship Reunion in Hilton Hotel - Photoshop World Asia 2006 last week ^_^

Sad news

*** I was gonna get an ANGORRA pure breed rabbit for FREE from someone but somebody picked it up before me, DAMMIT!!!! I WILL Get A Bunny VERY SOON. I DON’T CARE!

         "Many walk in and out of your lives, but some leave footprints in your heart"

These people are rare like gems. I’m fortunate enough to have met a few. Recently I met a very charismatic and dynamic young gentleman who touches the heart of everyone he comes to know of. What intrigued me most about this man is that he makes me wonder if he even knows that he’s special to ppl around him and that he has the ability to make you look at life at a very different and positive perspective. He doesn’t boast, he doesn’t show off, he doesn’t bragggg, he’s completely EGOLESS and he treats everybody lika diamond to him. This kinda person gains my full respect and admiration. But well, as the saying above goes, special ppl they have to leave after they left their footprints. THAT! for me, IS a star in god’s heaven *blink*

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I’m definitely not anywhere near being a STAR in any heaven. Cuz i’m about to complaint and rant =D

For starters, it’s FRIDAY NITE! Let’s screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam *weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!* I definitely do NOT wanna spend the rest of life waiting for friday nite every week. I gotta find a way around this kinda office life and fix it.

So today was slacking day ! @ d office. Cuz the bosses din come in till after 4pm. Woohoo! The office was OURS *evil mode* and so we did everything we could think of in there. Well don’t ask me what :Þ And well we were supposed to finish up the work but since our clients and bosses dilly dally everything and we’ve done our parts, so … no guilt for being slackers today!

Unexpectedly, they bought Carlsberg, Cheezels, Banana Cake, Swissrolls, Orange Juice, Uhm .. what else? Groundnuts. Hoho and we had a li’l party there while watching some stupid clips on youtube.com and laughed till I had no tears left. Well, and ah I guess there’s an invisible banner hanging in the office saying "hey we’re gonna have celebrations like this after we complete each project so NO PAY FOR YOU ALL woohoo!" -_-

Yay i’m broke as hell but who cares? I’m goin to catch my Jack Sparrow on Sunday!!! See ya’ll!

Have a GREAT weekend.
CHEERS!
CHEERS!
CHEERS!
CHEERS!
CHEERS!

Yesterday the lady boss was askin me to help her burn a couple of kids bible songs CDs for her. It was nolstalgic listening to those songs  *…cute…* and most of ‘em sound more like nursery rhymes than bible songs :Þ And so I was singing " la la la … Jesus loves me! This I know … La la la.." Lady boss was *shocked* and was like heyyyy how come you know this song? I was smiling away ..

Boss : You attended Sunday School meh?
Me    : NO :Þ
Boss : Then how come you know how to sing? WEIRD la you.
Me    : *speechless*
Me    : *was thinking to myself* What the …
           Do I Have TO BE A Christian To Learn CHRISTIAN Songs ?
           Do I Havta Attend Sunday School 2 Learn Bible Songs and Hymns ?

So what if i know how to pray in Sanskrit?
then I’m a Hindu? then I’m a weirdo?

So what if i have a pendant like this dangling on my chest, does it make
me a Himalayan guru that meditates underwater?

Have a nice day!

Despite the weather being OVENLY hot [*SHIT* I don't even have to take a shower anymore] I fell asleep for almost a couple of hours in the afternoon, thankfully the buzz in YM from a friend woke me up and the dream ended abruptly. I was half surprised + half curious + half happy to wake up.

The strange dream - WARNING : Not for the weak hearted.
Are you ready?
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Lotsa insignificant events happened before that. Geez .. my heartbeat is abnormal right now. I feel … … CHOKED. And then I was supposed to go to work, as usual, except that there were ALOT of people doing work, NOT designing websites, logos, flash banners, etc on the computers BUT something else. I was appalled and paralyzed but lent a helping hand anyway. A lady explained to me that we’re doing a charity work, helping the poor by donating the stuff in the office to them. *question marks*

I realized I’m a member of an organization called Diamond which organizes charity work *oh … ok* That solved my mystery as to who those buncha ppl were. There’s no warning about what’s the NEXT scene gonna be like. Before we entered a room, the people told us "Hey, u’ll see somebody getting shot in there or the head being cut off". I was like oh yeah? u mean FOR REAL? heh! From the way he was smilling the sissy-like smile, I ignored him and walked straight into HELL. Not literally though, but it WAS a room in prison *i guess?* where ppl get their heads cut off or shot. (Damn it! I haven’t even been watching horror movies for CENTURIES!) Thank God I didn’t get to SEE it cuz just when I was about to step into that "room", it was completely silent, but in the silence i could hear the criminals or victims, whichever way u wanna call them, screaming their lungs out, begging for forgiveness. And I saw a dozen of guards standing around them. I only saw the guards buttocks and I backed out. Decided it’s best I stayed outside, while some Diamond crew either accidentally stepped into the room and have to bear the nightmare for the rest of their lives or some are just plain curious and I hoped curiousity won’t kill the cat.

The vibration and odour of death I get by standing outside could already make me dizzy and puke for months or even years. But it’s still better than witnessing what’s being done inside. While I was outside with a few friends standing at a corner, waiting for others to come out, we started to have a chit chat with the guards outside, they look gloomy but attempt to be cheerful though. I never thought that what I was gonna discover later would make my trip into that ROOM I talked about earlier much easier to deal with.

A guard walked past me and when I turned to see where he was going. I nearly toppled over a few DRIED babies on the ground. It was an open, VAST field, like the jagung field in Superman but this one isn’t filled with jagung , it was filled with BABIES and KIDS being "sunbathed" to DEATH , systematically in rows, just like how ppl plant veges or jagungs !!! What the HELL is going on!? *pukes* *pukes* *pukessss*

Those cute babiessss .. if only I could rescue them *sobs*. I couldn’t rewind what I’ve already seen so I just had to continue to SEE. I saw a young chinese girl about 8 years old, wriggling and trying to get off the ground but her face burnt like Kenny Roger’s chicken, even if she’d been released, she wouldn’t have been able to live for another 5 minutes. I couldn’t see her wriggle to death …  So I took a closer look at some supposedly dead babies, they were actually DOLLS, like this!

*grabbed from istockphoto*

They were being tied to a stake and being hung upside down. At that time, I could only thank God for one thing - that the stake didn’t go through its body. So yeah, some are real babies, some are young kids, some are dolls. It doesn’t happen in real life right? Kids below age 10 can’t be charged with murder or anything right? They will never have to be given death penalty? Right right right?

My friends and I began to explore the grounds, marched across the field, my heart filled with stones and only stones. I felt like I’m one of them. Dead. Further down the field, I saw bigger kids, like young teenage kids, sitting on a terrace of benches like the seats in a stadium, their faces were almost emotionless and heads looking on the ground, hands clasps together, nervously waiting for their TURNS to go … All I could see is that they were trying to remember God, praying for a miracle and that’s what ppl do at the last moment of their lives right? Most ppl turn to God only when they’re in need. But anyway, what could they have possibly done to deserve this?

When they heard us, their heads perked as though expecting an angel with a magic wand to appear and rescue them. But sorry I’m no angel or fireman in a suit, I’m as lost as you are here. I couldn’t help but smiled and waved at them. Realizing that that’s the only thing I could do to comfort them (I guess). Hopefully they didn’t think that I was mocking them. Tears streamed down my cheeks when they smiled and waved back cheerfully but disappointed that I wasn’t there to HELP them. I began to sob when I knew that THOSE were the last smiles of their lives and all have very sweet and charming smile.

A buncha events went on n on until I woke up. But that’s all I could recall.

I ain’t trying to be a novelist or anything. I just thought typing out the story could release the tension in me from the dream and to take my heartbeat back to normal.

The hard thing about being a vegetarian is that people are bothered being around you.

All I ask for is a respect for vegetarianism, that’s it. What’s so hard about it?

The "respect" in this context means you DON’T HAVE to bother about the vegan! Don’t make it an issue! I don’t like to drag ppl into vegetarian shops or restaurant just cuz i’m a vegan and honestly? I don’t really like to eat in a vegan shop unless it has special dishes.

Ya feel like eating anything? Just drag me IN! I don care if they sell only meat and even the noodles and rice are made of meat of even the shop is BUILD of meat. There are things that’s pretty hard to explain this outburst, i tried to type it out but i confuse myself in the end.

When ppl are with me, I don’t want them to treat me LIKE a vegetarian. It makes me feel like an alien and feel that it’s bcuz of me that they can’t enjoy meaty food. You see, my friends used to take me into various kinda non-vegan
restaurants like Sushi King, Johnny’s Kitchen, etc and i end up making
the food that i request in there my favourites!

Sometimes being a vegan makes me feel so alone. Especially when people don’t understand how you feel and they try so hard to show their respect that it turns into a mockery. It hurts. No matter what, it is the principle of my life for this life time. No matter how alone i feel, I’d have to go through it or I’ll fail myself.

Sometimes God makes you meet people to test your patience, how far you can go as a person, know yourself a little further, to show you there’s more to life than just what you feel.

Most of the time i find it not easy to pass this "test" but angels do come along the way, hold my hand and take me through it.

Sometimes, when I decide to do something, I think so much about the consequences that the objectives are blinded and I screw up.

Well, it’s not worth thinking too much about these stuff especially right after I had a great time with my bro, Piggie, Gigiless Ling in Cathay Cineplex today. We watched Superman. I’d give 3 / 5 stars for the movie. Brandon Routh is HOT and his son is DARN CUTE. Dats all i can say about the movie. 

After dropping Gigiless, we went to Subang’s Carrefour. And while at the counter, i ah .. spotted a familiar face and another one … William Quah my gawd *jaw drops*. Many might not know him but he is the young host for ntv7 breakfast show, used to be anyway.

I used to wake up early to watch his show almost everyday during sem breaks at home. No no no it wasn’t because of his … looks, well yeah, maybe a li’l :p but ahh .. the thing is, i love his accent! It’s a bit of both British - Australian accent. That’s what i adore him for Cool dude, great personality and oh yeah great smile!

I was hesitating whether I should go up to him n say hi, well, he’s a celebrity, so what? And i was like nahhh … he won’t notice me anyway and he probably is goin the other way BUT then i guess it’s important to let people know if you think they’re good! Shouldn’t keep it to yourself! So I wanted to compliment him and tell him how much i liked his show! Then he turned in my direction and began pushin his overloaded trolley and i called out verrrry softly but he heard :p Not surprised and without hesitation, he flashed his great smile. Annen, we had a brief short n sweet conversation

He said : KEEP watching the TV and look out for cool stuff comin out!

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Oh noo … it’s monday again tmr!!! >.<